Lukin4simplicity - Just My Thoughts

the key to trust

Mon, 4 Sep 2006 13:05:49 UTC

The key is to trust people to be who they are. Instead we trust people to be who we want them to be, and when they aren't, we cry.

~anonymous

lukin 4 simplicity

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 08:10:19 UTC

I created an entry the other day but for some reason it didnt post. But everything happens for a reason. Anyway, I have this crazy idea about what it is that I really want out of life. And the thought of it makes me extremely happy!!!! So pray for me and pray that things will work out!

~Lukin 4 simplicity

reflections

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 21:13:57 UTC

They say that when it rains, it tends to pour. That seems to be the case for the past few weeks. It seems that things seem to happen back to back. But one thing that I can say is that you have to prepare yourself for what ever life may throw at you. One of my friends use to always say, "When life gives you lemmons, you make lemonade" I have to say that this statement means more to me now then it ever did before. One thing I do have to be thankful for is the people in my life. I have good friends, few friends but good friends.

There comes a time in your life where you have to reevaluate who is truly a friend, who truly cares, who's always there for you when you need them the most, who takes the time out of thier busy life to call just to check up on you. So the other night I sat there and I thought about who is always there for me, and it turns out that there are three people who I know that I can always count on and I thank the Lord for them. What would I do if I didnt have my girls!!!??? Lol!

They say a man will come and go but your girls will always be there. This statment is oh so true!

Well, that is enough evaluation for one night. So until later.

~still learning n still growing

Food for thought

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 17:11:13 UTC

Fool me once, shame on you!

Fool me twice, shame on me!

Fool me a third time, I deserve it!

India Arie

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 12:47:21 UTC

I just wanted to add that the new India arie CD, "testimony Vol 1: Life and relationships" is absulutely amazing. It's worth the purchase!

What am I looking for?

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 12:29:28 UTC

What am I looking for? The other day I sat at home contemplating somthing that had occured the other day. Here I sat, in my living room, thinking about this situation. suddenly my parents walked in. We exchanged the usual 'hellos' and 'how was your days' and then they continued into the house and I was about to go back to my contemplation but instead I just sat there watching the interaction between my mom and my dad. This then led me to contemplate my parents relationship. And I realized that I want what my parents have. My father would do anything for my mother, he would give his life for her, and do anything it takes to keep her happy. And my mother, in turn would do the same.

My parents have been married for almost forty years and they are still going strong. I see it in my faither's eyes each day. Yes, they argue. They argue and they fuss. But when all is said and done, at the end, they are always laughing. They've been through so much together. My mother was 18 when she married and my father was well into his twenties at the time. They had many ups and even more downs. But they pulled through it together. They were two young adults who built a family and a home from the ground. And to think, now they are still going strong or even stronger. All these ideas that we have about love, I have to say, I see it all within my parents. That is true love right there! Thats what I want, someone to build with.

Letting go (finally)

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 21:47:40 UTC

I've finally done something that I thought I wouldn't be able to do, well at least not so soon. But I have finally let Mr. Man go. Let's recap first. Way back in January I broke up with the boyfriend. But of course we tried the whole friendship thing and needless to say that wasn't working out. So eventually we just stopped talking to each other. Then somehow we started talking on line and then on the phone. But I realize that talking to him was not helping me. Talking to him just was not a good idea. So I stopped talking to him and it's been about 2 or 3 weeks that we havent spoken.

I must admit that I miss him like crazy. I think about him way too often. But What can you do? I thought that it was love but now I'm not too sure. All I know is that They way I felt about him was different from the way I ever felt for anyone. Well, I thought that I was truly in love once before him. LOL. But there's a think line between love and being obssessed with something that you can't have. How thin that line is, I just don't know. But that's another story. Anyway, I miss him but for the first time I can honestly say that I dont want to be back in that situation. There were certain things about his character that I really shouldn't have put up with. But when you think that your in love, you just see past all of the mistakes/flaws. I'm happy to say that I don't want to be with him. But I can't honestly say that I still don't love him. But then again, I can't honestly say that I still do love him. I just don't know!!!

It could be that this is the first time, since I've started dating, that I have ever been alone, truly alone. Truthfully speaking, I don't like it. But I do appreciate it. It feels good to not have to consider someone else's feelings for once, as selfish as that sounds, its true. It feels good to just think about me and focuss on my wants and needs. But mostly it feels good to finally let the thought of him and me go!!

Will we ever be together again? I told myself that I would never date an ex, no more second or third chances. But he probably is the only one that I may give a second chance to. Yea, I don't know. All I do know is that right now, I may still love him but I dont want him. Wow, I think that I'm finally growing up.

2am contemplations

Sat, 1 Jul 2006 00:40:49 UTC

I use to believe that love was the greatest gift given to man. What good would life be without love? What good would any of us be without love? But, then again, love can also be seen as a curse because with love comes a lot of heartache and pain. So is love worth it? Like what’s the point? How many times should one allow oneself to become tangled up within a web of emotions? Someone once told me that if love hurts, then that’s not true love. And then another person told me that if there is no pain, no stress, then something is wrong, and with love comes stress. They said that love means going though the ups and downs and still being able to pull through together. Which is it?

Yes, I have all of these questions and I say all of this crap about love and relationships but when all is said and done, I know deep down that love is important to me. I guess I’m a hopeless romantic. I don’t know! All I do know is that I’m tired of relationships for right now. I know I need to work on me and make things right in myself before I can really be with anyone. So that’s the plan. But one thing is for sure, When I am ready to start dating again, I’m not settling or putting up for anything less then what it is that I’m looking for. Because, for the first time in my life, I know what I want.